Celebrations - The Queens Platinum Jubilee

Thought of the day: Dot to Dot puzzles only connect once they are created. Its You can’t connect dots that aren't there to get a pre planned  picture.

Listening to TV and hearing  people reflect on the long life and reign of HM The Queen.

Without plans there's no dots or route to follow so success cant be measured. It’s easy to bumble along and enjoy things  as they pop up but you neither  succeed nor fail. I don't like leaving  things to chance or luck. I like to know where I’m going. how I'll get there so I can tick things off as done. I like to be creative and write out my own dots.

The national holiday with  celebrations of Elizabeth ll being The Queen for 70 years showed she was a toughie! She's resilient and a great example yet hah very  little control over anything. The dots that form the picture of her life  are created by others. She was unable to attend many of the planned events for health reasons.  I can't guess how it must feel to be over age 90 and have the pressure of looking your best and smiling for the press and public every day. No staying in and watching Corrie for her if its wet outside.

 I'm not the queen nor  90 thank goodness . It sounds a pretty daunting job to me. I wouldn't want it. 

Her husband died last year too. I feel I get that aspect of her life.  No matter how wealthy you are, how supportive family and friends try to be,  no matter how helpful, sympathetic or whatever staff, colleagues and the general public are , life without the person you chose to love if they have been alongside you forever suddenly develops a massive gap that  simply can’t be filled.

The one person The Queen probably needs more than anyone to give her a knowing smile, hear words of encouragement from, to trust and share her real thoughts and fears about the fuss and pomp associated with the celebratory events and celebrations is missing, She will miss shushing him up, hoping he won't be rude too. All this hurts, matters and is a huge hurdle to get over. 

Money or titles just couldn't soften the blow of  loss. Even worse celebrations highlight the absence. 

For me to attend and enjoy any event now is like a dot to dot  puzzle.  I always need a whole new set of dots to follow.

Meanwhile I'm grateful our friendship  and marriage was of the  type that makes me miss him loads.Some people don't have such happiness to look back on. Steve would be very pissed off igf I didn't miss him I know that for sure.

Back to designing my new dots!